A SINGLE STRAND OF START-TO-FINISH

I don’t want to be mincing          any more
gingerly sick of the eggshells
I am warm crow screaming throat-hoarse
blood pooling like salt after a coughing fit
yes a comfort / yes a thankless penance

we’ve been here before / stretched out
in the lap of indignant indigo indolence
if you get there before me put in a good
word     before the council          before
they load the scales        I will be

just a minute     scouring my nails
with an obsidian blade                 keeping
a weary eye       on the horizon

well if not / feed me honey / keep me alive with
poetry / still I sneak sips between each bloodless
sword / shrinking between letters / keep me
staved off and starving / sane but never sated

teetering on a brokered brink
clicking hungering teeth along
the barren hull of a wilful ball of yarn

my interrupted thoughts all
stopped clocks staking testament
to an immotile moment

they say slipper a needle threaded
with red into the banana-heart
bend her to every behest            show
me your roving ropes     your damp hangmen

a shibari monologue tightened
to a perfect snugness leaving
the safety shears in my left hand

later,
fall unsheathed a puddled
net from naked sharkskin

a rind of cruel cord coarse in your soft grip
string me up to dry / flaking mackerel
streaked with cyan glint / long have I wended

winnowed dart dodging for the one
way to catch & twine me catgut

step slenderfooted point-blank into
the fibre arts     the poem a tether

drop not your anchors, merely silk-skein me to the shore;
pull back my hair / attend the batwing sleeves / loosen my
tongue               for your knots
I, milktoothed buffalo-horn comb
unhurriedly unpicking each tangle
from its sister / weave something strong
but soft with which I may

dangle from death

each point in time murmuring slung
sliding in tandem a glass bead kissing
its neighbour
as itself

the workings of an abacus miraculous
kneeling sweetly             to beg
unresolving the infinitesimal
problem of         the
calculus

of change

after this, I, a snakeskin shed
spent    washed up         ashore
still gripping
that single strand
in left hand